I’m not a particularly patient person.
When I have an idea, I like to fling myself into it.
Literally.
I want to take action and get messy and see what happens if I try it.
What have I got to lose?
Sometimes it’s a success, sometimes it a total flop…. but I feel better if I just give it a whirl.
Action. That’s my thing.
Unfortunately, the consequence of this strange character quirk is that I am not a very patient person. Blame it on my New York roots, and my take charge Mom, my business training…. Patience is not something I’m good at.
I bet you can see where this is going…
In the life of this fast talking, quick acting, throw myself into it woman, God keeps making me WAIT.
Uggghhh.
Double Uggghhh.
Falling in Love? took forever
Getting Married? three looong years
Having the Little Guy? the gut wrenching heartache of infertility.
And now we’re there again.
Waiting. Wondering. Asking. Crying. Hoping. Clinging. Praying.
Patience.
Uggghhh.
I wish I was better at it.
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
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I feel like that's the story of my life as well. Sometimes God's refining stinks… even if it's worth it in the end.
It's so hard to wait on God when we're ready for something. I'm like you…once I make up my mind I'm ready for something I want it to happen NOW! I have to keep reminding myself that it's GOD'S plan for my life, not MY plan. But man oh man, sometimes it's so hard to wait! Praying for you.
Hugs, my friend. It's so cliche, but His timing is ALWAYS perfect, even when we can't see it.
I am not the most patient person either… it is definitely a learning process!
I love your open honesty Sharon! It is so refreshing to me! I too am not a very patient person, ask my husband. I am trying to learn and to also trust in God's plan and timing! Your friend is right – God's plan is always purposeful, even though we don't always understand it. Prayers and thoughts are with you!!! Everything will work out the way He wishes in the end and what I know about you tells me that in the end you will accept His will pefectly and peacefully!
You seem like a very patient and beautiful person! I love the picture too. I always wished I had more patience too, but it just doesn't come that easily.
People think I am easy going, HA! It is the things in life that took foreverrrr that have knocked the type A out of me.
Blessings and peace upon you as you wait.
Sharon,
What a gentle reminder on patience, something I'm sure we can all use a little more of!
And I loved your post on people asking you if you miss working outside the home. I feel the same way…some days I miss it, but mostly I am so glad for the opportunity not to miss out on my kids.
Looking forward to reading more,
Happy
Waiting? Double ugh!
We're in a "waiting time" as well, and it's not so great. What is great is the appreciation we'll have when we're all done with it.
I'll pray you don't have to wait for long this time.
I am not a patient person either. Over the last decade I have learned to trust GOd and His timing though. Sending good thoughts your way
I hope your waiting goes quickly… been there, am there and in hindsight HE always does have perfect timing. We may not see that until much later.
Oh, Sharon…
What a wonderful reminder – you write so beautifully.
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Somehow – and I don’t believe in coincidences… I found myself on your blog this morning looking at this post. I have followed your journey for awhile, so I know your story, but when I read this, this morning it had new meaning for me. I am once again in a “waiting” period in my life, and we wait to see if our dear baby girl is going to make it. I’m horrible at waiting… I’m an inpatient person. I like solid, immediate answers. I have none of these right now. I am not in control. I am not good at this. Thank you for the reminder and the Bible verse.
I continue to hope and pray you get news on the adoption front soon.
Sarah